A Lazy Saturday!

First of all, I want to brag a little bitty bit and tell y'all that in the last six weeks that I've been covering as my coworker was out with her new baby girl, I am almost completely caught up on documents (that I know how to do) and therefore did not have to work today! Last Saturday I was off because of my sister's shower, but this is the only day in at least the last six weeks that I haven't had a thing to do!

And you know what I did all day? That's right... nothing. I, of course, woke up at 7:15 when Matthew left for work and Cinnamon had a barking meltdown. The only times I rolled myself out of bed were to pee and to get cereal.

After a short nap, Matthew heated up a leftover calzone for lunch. And now he's on his way to pick up Outback takeout for dinner! This has been one of the most relaxing days I've had in a while. I feel like I'm recharged and ready for a new week.

Only 39 days until my niece or nephew is due, 59 days until my 25th birthday, 60 days until school is done, and 63 days until graduation! I am so excited for all of these things to come!

Did I Just Run a Marathon?

No, no I did not. But I feel like in the last week, I have been going nonstop!

Last week I had two 12 hour clinicals out of town, so I prefer to call them my 18 hour days. I wake up at 4 on these days, drive an hour, take a 15 minute bus ride, then a 15 minute walk, work a 12 hour shift (unless by some miracle I get to leave early), walk 15 minutes, ride 15 minutes, and then drive an hour back home to eat and get in bed as soon as I possibly can so that I can wake up and do it all over again. In fact, I get to do it again this week and next week! Lucky me!

I have been working a lot of Saturdays at my job to help us stay relatively caught up on paperwork. So after working 8-6 Friday, I worked 7:30-3:30 on Saturday. I was still extremely tired from the long clinical days but was kind of in autopilot at that point haha. Then I got to babysit the sweetest little baby that night for a couple of hours! He is always good though and never exhausts me. I can only hope that one day my children are as easy and quiet as he is haha!

And Sunday was my sister's first baby shower! Super exciting and fun! She got so many things that she needed. I think she got most of her big items like the swing, bouncy seat, pack n play, etc. And of course there were a few fun items in there that she hadn't registered for like a cute elephant hooded towel and washing mitt. They even had the elephant's trunk on them! All of the food was really good. I probably ate my weight in fruit with chocolate and marshmallow dips. Seriously, I love that stuff!

If I can just make it to Saturday, then only one more week of my 18 hour days, and then a few less stressful weeks will be in sight!

85 Days...

...if you're counting weekends and holidays! The graduation date has been announced for May 11, and of course it's bright and early at 10 a.m. It seems like yesterday I was quitting my job to pursue this 21-month adventure. And now, we're in the middle of month 19. Yay! That's all I have to say about that.

During my lunch break between classes on Tuesday, I went to the grocery store to get everything I needed to pass out resumes. Didn't know that things from the grocery store could accompany a resume? Well they did! After class, I whipped up quite the list of goodies to pass out to various clinical sites. I made peanut butter brownies, chocolate chip chocolate cheesecake squares, chocolate cheesecake cupcakes, and banana coconut bread. I wanted to let each place know how  much I appreciated them for allowing me to rotate at their facility and for everything I learned during my time there. I used my cute little note cards that were pink and green and everything bright! Of course, I left my resume with the goodies! I want my  name to stand out from everyone else in my class and from any other school rotating through those facilities.

However, my luck stinks. Out of the 5 places, I never saw a single manager. I have great timing! I was feeling somewhat discouraged after the first couple of places because I had seen no one that I knew. If you know me, you know that I don't like being noticed in public. I felt very awkward and very noticeable as I carried in a huge container of food. Ha you wouldn't believe I felt like I would be looked at suspiciously, as if I had a bomb in my hands. Stupid I know. It's just a scary thing to be a big girl and to be looking for a job where you don't have someone on the inside looking out for you.

When I got to the third hospital, I saw some of my great preceptors who quickly took notice of me dressed to impress. They were so excited that I had cupcakes for them! That was all I needed to be reassured of my goals! There was not a soul around when I strolled into the next place. But it was okay. I knew just where to place everything so it would be seen!

Today, I went to the last place on my list. This was the largest hospital I planned to go to, one of the two major hospitals we rotated at throughout the program. I was extremely nervous and kept waiting to actually go through with it. I wore a dress with leggings and boots and my jean jacket. I was worried I was too casual, but I knew deep down that I was looking good haha! Again, there were no supervisors in sight. But the team leader was there and a couple of preceptors I had been with before. To my surprise, they remembered me! The butterflies went away and I was at ease. I gave them my spill about being thankful and appreciative and told them I brought them bread. I may have rambled about licking the bowl and how good it was before baking. They were blown away that I made them something!

My spirits are high! I am hopeful for any news that is to come!

Beginning the Job Search

This week I sat down with my teacher to go over my resume. I've been using the same resume for years, because it works for me. Any time I've sent it out to multiple jobs, I always get at least a couple of interviews. But since the healthcare field is so different from what I'm used to in the business world, I just felt that I needed his professional viewpoint on what all I needed to include. He really loved my resume though and honestly felt that I needed very few changes, which really surprised me! We actually use a form of resume called a vitae. Has anyone ever heard of that before? It basically is just a more thorough resume with paragraphs explaining your experience instead of bullet points. It is the perfect format for me considering that is exactly how my resume already was!

Then we discussed what I will do after graduation. I am going to register for two summer classes and finally get on my way towards completing my bachelor's degree! I cannot wait until May 2014! My teacher is a great advisor and friend. He knows that despite my personal motivation to continue my education, I also need a big push to actually achieve my goals. I don't plan to stop with just a bachelor's degree. I told him that I never planned to even be in this situation. I dreamed of going off to college and eventually moving to a big city or another country. I never planned for my PaPa to die two months into my college career and to end up in a 6 month long bout of depression that I vaguely remember. I never planned to move back home when I was 20 years old, or even to get a full-time job making the move so permanent. And I certainly never planned to enroll in community college for a degree in anything medical. My life is so opposite of what I ever expected it to be. I told him that, and how I felt so behind all of my friends who have moved to those bigger cities and who have real jobs making lots of money. They get to travel with their friends and families and go out to try new things. I feel like I am a level below them because I am still a college student at the age of 24. Seriously? That sounds so awful for me to basically admit that I'm jealous of what they have. But it's all very true.

But because my teacher has also become a good friend, he pushed me to express what I really want to accomplish in my life. I never want to be just a respiratory therapist. Once I get my bachelor's, I want to get my master's in healthcare management. I eventually want to be in management, possibly owning a business related to the field. But I even shared with him that I still have dreams of going to law school and being a lobbyist. I still love business and law and government and politics. Those will always be a part of me. He assured me that all of these things do make sense together and my dreams aren't out of left field! But his best advice, and something that will always stick with me, is not to compare myself to what others have. They have finished school and are now in what is the rest of their life. But I have not finished school, and clearly my educational goals are nowhere near complete. So how can I compare my life, where I am still climbing the ladder, to someone who has already reached the top of their ladder. I currently don't see an end to my ladder! And I hope that it continues to be that way throughout my life. I'm admitting that I am going to be one of those lifetime learners who never stops setting new goals and achieving bigger and better things!

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